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"Discoveries "Written By: Helen Fic 3 in the "Lovers Arc"
Pairings : 1+2 / 2+1 Spoilers : None Archive : http://gundam-wing-diaries.150m.com/gw/main_Updates.html Rating: R Author's Notes: Fic # 3 in “Lover’s
Arc“. Finally I got inspired to write this part… mainly
due to Gackt-sama’s song. Hope you enjoy. Dedication: To those of you who wanted me to continue
writing the Lovers Arc! (And you know who you are!) Songfic Notes:
Discoveries <<<Duo POV>>> As I crawl my way into consciousness, I stretch my aching muscles and let out a low groan from the deep sleep. Opening my eyes slowly, a white ceiling comes into view. I smile. “Back in the guest room,” I whisper as I sit up on the bed. I suppose that Heero just isn’t ready yet; I mean it was quite forward of me last night. But still, Heero is just so… *shy* sometimes. I chuckle softly and walk into the hallway towards the bathroom to wash up. When the door closes behind me, I glance around at the tiny room with the toilet, sink, and shower stall. I can almost smell the subtle aroma of Heero’s soap and shampoo. Smiling to myself again, I twist the faucet until a steady stream of water flows out. Finishing up, I wipe my face with the soft washcloth before hanging it up next to Heero’s light blue one. My lavender-colored one really compliments it; in my humble opinion. I exit the small bathroom and walk towards the kitchen. Passing by the slightly ajar door to Heero’s bedroom, I sneak a quick peek inside to see that he is still asleep… like a child. I slip inside quietly and approach his bed. [itsumademo kimi dake wa kawaranai de soba ni ite] “Beautiful… my love,” I whisper, brushing a few unruly bangs from his forehead. I lean in to bestow a soft kiss to his lips, but I cannot help myself from pressing harder against the parted mouth, tracing it with my tongue. He shifts under me and through my half-lidded eyes, I see his cobalt ones fly open, surprised. “Mmh!” I smile to myself as Heero tries to speak. I hold the kiss for a moment longer before gently breaking it. <<<Heero POV>>> I breathe a little deeper after that incredible kiss. Duo is still looming over me, making my heart pound faster. I just cannot tear my eyes away. The bed sinks a bit whilst he eases his weight to his left, his right hand reaching up to touch my cheek. The intensity of his unwavering stare is just too much and I lower my eyes, almost embarrassed. He leans in to kiss me again, his hand traveling down my face to my neck, my chest, and my stomach… I gasp into his mouth when his wandering hand slips under my tank top and lightly traces my abs. //Oh god…// I think to myself as his hand moves upward, pushing my tank top along. My own hands tangle themselves into Duo’s chestnut hair and the kiss deepens. Instinctively I part my lips and our tongues meet somewhere in the middle. It’s indescribable. As he brushes lightly against my hardened nipples, I gasp into his mouth and he pulls away, leaving us both breathless. I gaze up at him and he gives me this sultry little smile that surely will make me weak at the knees and collapse if I had not been lying down in the first place. I press my hands to his chest, still trying to slow my quickened breathing. “Wait… too fast,” I manage to say. His expression softens with understanding but with a hint of…something else. Disappointment? I start to feel ashamed and I open my mouth to take it back but he dips in to kiss me again, silencing me. But it no longer holds any of the passionate hunger like it did before and bringing up my hands to encircle Duo’s waist, I feel that it is all my fault. <<<Duo POV>>> I flip the eggs one last time before turning off the stove. While scooping them onto the two plates set out on the kitchen table, I smile as I remember what had happened in Heero’s room that morning. We were both so close to losing control, but I am glad that Heero made me realize that we *were* going a bit too fast. I mean, we haven't slept in the same bed yet. But… I am mad at myself for doing that. I just hope he isn’t. I make my way into the living room, where Heero is standing facing the windows, his arms crossed loosely in front of him. Silently I sneak behind him and wrap my own arms around his body, pulling him backwards into mine. [boku no ude de dakishimeta toki kara] “Breakfast is ready,” I whisper into his ear. Heero doesn’t respond but he struggles slightly against my hold, as if trying to break away. It is then that I realize how much his hands are trembling. [kono yokan ni kizuita kara] I reach out and clasp his hands in my own, bringing them up against his chest. “Heero?” I lean closer to his face but he turns his head away. Sensing something is wrong, I step back and grasp his shoulders, turning him to face me. My eyes widen in shock at the sight before me. Even though his head is bowed, I can see a wet trail down his cheek. “Heero… what’s wrong?” [adokenai egao ni miseta kimi ni] “Nothing. I’m fine,” he responds, still with that smile. He wipes his face hastily with the back of his hand. “I’m fine, really,” Heero continues as he brushes past me to head towards the kitchen. I stand there, unable to think of anything to say. [namida no wake o kikenakute] We both eat in silence, me trying to find something to say while Heero is just… quiet. He seems incredibly dejected this morning. I wonder if it is because of what happened. I start picking at the already scrambled eggs on my plate and glance up at the young man before me. Fixing my gaze on my breakfast again, I swallow before I speak. “Ne, Heero, I’m… sorry about this morning. I mean, I’m *not* sorry but… I shouldn’t have…” I stumble over my words, not sure what I’m apologizing for. “Don’t.” Heero’s sad request halts my rambling. I direct my concern at him, forgetting my apology. I quickly scoot my chair next to his and take his hands that are folded on the table behind his plate. “What’s wrong?” [boku no tsukanda te o furihodoite…] “Nothing,” he says, getting up. Of course I’m not convinced and before he can leave the kitchen, I grab his wrist and pull him against me. Surprisingly, he doesn’t resist and he lets me embrace him. I hold him close, nuzzling where his neck meets his shoulder and soon I can feel his arms coming up around me. “Gomen. I should be sorry for stopping you. I just… I want to but…” Strangely enough I smile slightly, relief flowing through me as I understand that he wants to go further as well. It's just not the right time yet. Gently I rub his back, comforting him. [sotto senakagoshi ni koe o kaketa] “It’s all right. I understand.” We just stay that way for a moment, wrapped around each other and not speaking. When Heero inhales and apologizes again, I shake my head, consequently my cheek rubs against his soft, yet messy hair. “It’s okay,” I repeat softly. [chiisaku furueteru kimi ni] “We don’t have to go that far now. Heck, we don’t even sleep in the same room yet, much less the same bed.” I pause, gathering my thoughts. “I know you want to Heero… and so do I, but not until you’re ready. I’m sorry for moving too fast.” Heero tightens his hold around my torso. “Not your fault,” he whispers and I smile. I still can’t believe how lucky I am to have chosen this town to move to. Even luckier that I chose the house next door to Heero to move into. It’s been well over a year since we first met but everything that has happened after that moment I will cherish forever. Although I deeply regret leaving him that one time, I’ll always remember it so I don’t repeat it in the future. Heero’s too precious for me to let go now. [itsudatte kimi dake wa kawaranai de soba ni ite] ~*~*~ “Ne Heero, it’s a beautiful day out don’t you think?” Breakfast is over and the both of us are sitting on the living room couch. Heero is sitting on one end and I’m a bit farther away, consciously trying to create a little space between us lest I “move too fast” again. His cobalt blue eyes turn to the window and he nods slightly. The sun is shining and the warm breeze makes it seem like a spring day despite it being close to autumn. “Would you like to do something today? Like maybe go out?” I ask, albeit tentatively. I watch him as he continues to stare fixedly out the window, as if lost in thought. A small smile creeps onto his face, just a slight upturning on the corner of his lips. He turns his head to me. [nanigenai hanashi no naka de] “Aa… I’d like that.” I grin widely at him and we both head towards our respective rooms to change. As I rummage through my closet before moving to my dresser, I finally decide on something simple: a red T-shirt and semi-tight blue jeans. I step out into the hall at the same time Heero does. His apparel is much like mine only a white T-shirt and a lighter shade of blue jeans. Still, even something plain looks good on him. Taking a hold of his chin I plant a light kiss on his lips. “You look great,” I whisper. [boku wa sukoshi hazukashisou ni warau kimi o] “Arigato,” he says, the smile growing brighter. Clasping his hand in mine, I lead him out the door. We head to the park with the cherry blossom trees and stand at the entrance for a moment, watching the various people and savoring the scene before us. It’s incredibly serene, like something out of a book… I can almost smell the fragrance of the blossoms. I lightly squeeze Heero’s hand and he glances at me. “Do you… remember the first time you brought me here?” he questions softly. “AA I’m glad I did. It was the first time you truly smiled at me.” Heero’s current smile turns sad and he lowers his eyes, seeming to remember that time. “But then you got sick because of me. And… that job change…” I turn to face him and cup his face in my hands, uncaring about the people ambling in the park. [hanasanai mama tsubuyaita] “I’m sorry I left that day. I regret it so much.” I kiss his lips right then, wanting to reassure Heero that I will not be going anywhere without him again. Surprisingly he gently pries my mouth open with his tongue and slips it in, making me moan softly. I pull away, but not without a grin. “Who’s moving too fast now, huh?” I whisper in amusement as I touch foreheads with Heero’s. The corner of his lips quirk upward into a half smile and he wraps his arms around my waist. [sono namida ga mou kieru nara] “I’m just glad you’re here,” he says. <<<Heero POV>>> We walk through the park, our hands clasped together and swinging slightly at our sides. Duo does not notice the odd and, at times, disgusted stares we receive from some of the people but I am aware of each one. It makes me want to loosen the hold Duo has on me; however, I do not want to appear ashamed of our relationship and I certainly don’t want to let him go again. I made that mistake once. And I don’t intend to repeat it. [itsudatte kimi dake wa kawaranai de soba ni ite] I take a look at my watch and see that it is already lunch time. No wonder I am feeling hungry. “Ne Duo? You want to stop somewhere for lunch or head home?” He turns and grins at me. “Let’s go home. I want to make something special for you.” I blink. Not that I don’t enjoy Duo’s cooking. To tell the truth it tastes so much better than my own, despite it being simple and maybe a little bizarre sometimes. “Why not let me make something?” I know he enjoys my cooking as much as I enjoy his, but this time he shakes his head. “I am still making it up to you for this morning.” Before I can protest he presses his index finger to my lips, effectively keeping them closed. Seeing that I cannot argue, he takes my hand and leads me home. ~*~*~ I wander into the kitchen and see that he is almost done. I can smell the wonderful scent of fried omelets with some… cheese? Although I’m not particularly fond of cheese it smells delicious either way. I walk silently up behind Duo and mindful not to startle him, I encircle my arms around his torso from behind. [boku no ude de dakishimeta toki kara] “Heero…” I can almost feel his smile in my name. We stay like that while he finishes cooking lunch, me with my eyes closed just savoring the warmth and close contact. I don’t let go until he pats my arm, signaling that he is done. He carries one plate to the kitchen table and I follow suit. We eat in silence again, but it’s definitely much more comfortable than this morning. “This is great, Duo,” I compliment him. He chuckles deep in his throat and grins at me. “Thanks.” We finish eating in no time and we dump the dirty plates into the sink. We’ll worry about them later. But I’m at a loss. What should we do now? He stretches his arms over his head, groaning slightly and sighing. “Man I’m tired.” He glances over at me. “Want to spend the rest of the day here? We can just watch movies or something?” I nod at his suggestion. “Sounds good.” ~*~*~ Duo shifts yet again. We are sitting on the couch in the living room but he’s still quite some distance from me. I have given up on the movie featured on the TV because of his shifting every 5 minutes. It seems like he cannot get comfortable despite the fact that we’ve already changed into a pair of shorts, relieving us from the tightness of our jeans. I try to focus on the movie. A teenage boy and I assume his girlfriend, are inside a rather dark theater. He reaches out to wrap his arm around her shoulders and pulls her close. It is then that Duo drapes his arm on the back of the couch. I glance sideways at him. [kono yokan ni kizuita kara] It's then that it finally hits me and I resist smiling. Taking the initiative I scoot over to where he is at the other end of the couch and lean my head on his chest. He sucks in a quick breath of surprise. I just wrap my arms loosely around his waist. “Is it… okay?” I ask quietly. “Wh… Of *course* it’s okay,” Duo blurts out and he quickly settles his arm that was draped over the back of the couch around my shoulder. I nestle closer, my hips touching his and making the moment even more intimate. We continue to watch the movie, more content than we’ve ever been. [te ni shita egao no kazu yori] The movie ends and another one begins, but I think the both of us are too busy relishing each other to care. It is the sound of crying that brings me to actually watch the present movie and just my luck it begins with a man leaving his wife, she desperately begging him to stay. It brings back memories of Duo’s departure weeks ago and I unconsciously tighten my hold around him. He immediately picks up my distress and he strokes my hair affectionately. “Don’t worry… I'm staying right here.” [sore ga boku no] I nod against his chest while he continues to whisper those words of reassurance. [itsudatte kimi dake wa kawaranai de soba ni ite] <<<Duo POV>>> I stop speaking when Heero relaxes his hold on me and just continue running my hand through his hair. The movie progresses onward but I begin to drift off, trying my hardest to stay awake but also wanting to fall asleep in the warmth Heero’s body is giving me. However I snap fully awake when his hand slips underneath my T-shirt and hesitantly runs across my waist. My heart rate quickens. [kono yokan ni kizuita kara] “H-Heero?” Cobalt blue eyes look up at me with such longing. “I’m not… afraid anymore,” he barely breathes out. He tilts his head up more as I lean down and our lips meet again. We kiss slowly… the passion that was present this morning returns and gradually builds up. I force myself to hold back to allow him to take control, to let him lead us. His hand leaves my waist and clutches onto my shoulder, pulling me down upon his body as he leans back onto the couch. The wandering hand comes to rest on my nape, pressing down slightly to pull me deeper into the kiss. I gently break it, panting and staring down at Heero’s flushed face. His eyes shine with tears. [itsudatte boku dake wa…] “…only I will love you this much Duo,” he whispers, voice slightly husky from the kiss. [kimi o hanashitari wa shinai kara] My throat tightens upon hearing his desperate words. I swoop down to claim his lips, letting the flame of passion engulf the both of us. I kiss him hungrily and he returns it with the same amount of fervor. “Mmhh…” he moans into the kiss, and I think I did as well, but I can’t be sure. All I know is that I want to taste more of him. Releasing his mouth I latch onto his neck, suckling gently yet firmly. He arches up against my body, incoherent gasps and moans spilling from his lips. I lick his neck slowly and I know now that Heero has become very precious to me. I’ll never let him get hurt again. [boku ga kimi o mamotte miseru kara…] <<<Heero POV>>> I cannot believe that it is this incredible. This intense feeling of another pleasuring me… I’m willing to drown in it. He pulls away and swiftly picks me up off the couch, carrying me into my bedroom. We both fall onto my bed, hands roaming everywhere and the both of us familiarizing ourselves with each other’s bodies. Clothes get stripped off as we become more frantic. Moving against each other, thrusting and groping. Everything narrows down to just the two of us, until we scream our ecstasy out in the empty room. Tangled in our sweaty limbs, heavy breathing is the only sound for a long moment before I whisper, “I love you,” to Duo. He sighs and kisses my temple. “I know… I love you too.” [kono yokan ni kizuita kara] Owari Notes: The end feels rushed because I so wanted to finish this. RL made me put it off long enough.
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